Loneliness

Bandar Lampung, June 29, 2008

In the middle of the night, I wake up and find me lonely in the darkness of the night, and I thought for a while, sometimes I felt that I don’t satisfy with my current role. I have discussed to my manager, but there was no solution for me, and sometimes it made me feel bad.

Here, in the loneliness of my bedroom, I try to understand what the life means, there are so many things in mind that made me feeling down, I don’t know why, that question always appears to me, but I can’t answer it.

Oh God, might be I am the person who don’t say thanks to you for your kindness, but I just beg to You one thing, please place me in the right position, in order make me feel a life.

Well, I know that I am not a perfect man, I have so many mistake and shortages for doing anything related to my activities in my job, my daily activities, but I tried the best of me, but sometimes there are people around me who barrier me to be advanced, sometimes it always disturb me, and make me always think, what should I do, I need a shoulder to cry on, but I have none.

I feel down here, I feel freaky to anybody that I meet. I feel so in loneliness, I feel empty in the crowdies of world, I feel hungry in the many of dishes around me, I feel poor in the some money that I have.

Might be, one thing that I should do, I need someone to be shared, to talk, to discuss about me, I need a psychiatrist to help me.

That’s all mu feeling, I need some help, for fighting the life. Even I am a man, I thought that anyone can cry as they wants, so I need a cry, I need home, I need affection.

The means of LIFE

As a human being, we realized that there are a lot of things should be thought by us of the dynamical of everythings that happened to us.

Sometimes i do care by my self to the people but incase most of the people don't care with me my self. I am just trying to the best things in life for people, but keep one things in mind that there is one thing that should be always be that is the God.

Most of us know and keep any attantion to the life in daily of our job in our company, while most of us don't care to each other, just think he himself, and do the things that he supposed that very wisely based on his opinions, but thats fact of life, we can do nothing, everyone have thier own rights to do somethings.

But keep one things in mind, and always be remember that "treat the people as you want to be treated by them".

Cheers it up, keep fighting the hard of life.

The Rock of Life

the life is a rock star

so show the best for your performance

cheers

Self Confident

Bandar Lampung, June 10, 2008

I have stop to something and try to think, when one of my collogues in HP stated to me that I am the people who have too self confidence. And I thought and try to understand it, what’s wrong with me?
“Once, when you have made some actions in front of many people, while some of them like you anymore, and others dislike you”, that’s the mean of humanity.
I have found so many people, Indonesian people, or foreign, but keep one things that I always remembered that, there are so many the way of thought of them in facing their life, that’s shown by their attitudes, the way of speak, the way of treats others.
And, there is an interest word that I always remember from my HR Manager, Pak Setya Rahadi who stated that “treat the people like you want to be treated”.
In my life, I always try to be a good person, and I just a human, and a human must be mistaken, “no body’s perfect, right”, so yeah, so times I should be so confident to be myself, that’s always I do.
And my reference person, Pak Didik and Pak Budi have said to me that, just being myself.
Of course, we are the learner of life in this world, so sometimes we make a mistake, and we can see the past for the improvement of our future.
I know that I have so many shortages, while that I should improve by getting the inputs from my collogues, parents, and me myself.
I will do my best in my life, and I always try to be myself, and respect to the people, and always be humble.

The bribes in Governmnet Institution

Bandar Lampung, 6 Juni 2006


Hmm,

Well, thats the fact of life, while that i felt when i have any business
with the people in government institutions.

Oh my god, when i follow the process for document,
oh my god, one of staff in the institution, actually said clearly for the money that i should pay to him,

I don't know, why thats happened, it make me sad,
why in the era of reformation today, we are still in Corruption era, that happened past.

Oh, my god, actually it make me hard to understand for this.

I hope someday, Indonesia governmnet will endorse the supremacy of law in all of institution, while when have any action of corruption, will be brought to the law.

Yes, of course, i will